Wednesday, November 10, 2010

This Author Is Landing, Please Clear The Runways


This will be one of the most scattered posts you’ve read from me. Mostly it is my excuse for not writing a real post. It could easily be titled Why The Dog Ate My Post.

I don’t know if this is normal for other people, but normally (with one exception, where I outlined a novel on the plane, back from WFC and worked feverishly starting the minute I landed) it takes me two/three days after a con to “land” fully – i.e., to return to my routines and proper mind.

This year was different. First, there was Miranda’s vet emergency. And then I seem to have come down with sinus infection from beyond.

Now, is this my excuse for having done nothing this week? No. I’ve worked this week. First, I wrote about 5k words on the novel and second I have finished rewriting what I had of the novel, which needed it before I could go on.

However, I’ve had to PUSH myself to work, and it hasn’t always been my best quality work. And I feel exhausted all the time. I have a basket of ironing waiting to be done, for instance, that I’ve simply NOT felt equal to.

Part of the point of this post is that I don’t give myself permission to just not work but on the other hand, I need to give myself permission to be “lame” for a few days.

Anyway – in my defense it’s not quite eight pm here, and I’m going to bed in a few minutes. This, in me at least, means I’m not well. And yet, because my boss – like Dave Freer I work for myself. I have a terrible boss – is a slave driver, I feel guilty about this and guilty about this disjointed post. I’m still going to bed.

Do you ever feel guilty for allowing your body to just rest? Do you worry you’re not pushing enough? Do you forgive me for this ridiculous post?

PS - In my new – gggggrrrroan – blog at http://accordingtohoyt.com I’m asking for recommendations on romances to read. Sound off if you have the time. If I'm going to bed at ridiculously early hours (and it happens a bit in winter, due to getting sick) I might as well read.

20 comments:

MataPam said...

Uh oh, in the mood for a Romance? Umm, there's so much romance in everything these days, I'm not sure how things are classified. Is Mary Stewart romance? _Madam Will You Talk_ is an occasional reread of mine, I don't think I've ever disliked one of hers.

Anonymous said...

We all have to give ourselves permission to tend to ourselves sometimes. You'll make up whatever you miss when you feel better.

The last thing I read that was categorized as romance was Angels' Blood by Nalini Singh. I didn't realize it was a "romance." I read it for the fantasy portion, but I do enjoy a good romance thrown into the stories.

Update on Weekly Short Story Challenge:

I failed last week but not really. It turned out that I wanted to do more work on the first week's story, "Jack in Black," than I thought. I spent last week getting it ready to submit. Then I submitted. I still consider it a win in my book because two weeks from nothing to submission on a 2400 word story is awesome for me. And I'm very proud of the story.

This week goes to a new story. I've yet to start, but I expect I'll get a lot done on it tomorrow when I have Veteran's Day off.

Anonymous said...

Crap! That was me. I keep forgetting that I'm not automatically identified here.

Linda

Rowena Cory Daniells said...

Sarah,

If your best friend was in the situation you are in now, what would you tell her to do?

Be kind to yourself.

Don't run yourself into the ground.

Sending cyber hugs.

MataPam said...

Oh yeah. And while you're reading those Fantasies, take care of yourself. Maybe even lay that book down and take a nap.

Give yourself permission. Don't listen to your inner slavedriver.

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Matapam,

For some reason the Mary Stewarts I've tried never got finished. My friend Sofie loves them too, I just don't seem to connect.

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Linda,

It's okay, we kind of assume it's you at this point :)

Everyone fails on the challenge sometime, except my friend Terry Hayman who managed a short story a year for two years. But we think he's not human, so that's okay.

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Rowena,

Yeah, unfortunately the slave drive has my (our) best economic interests at hand...

Kate said...

That boss of yours is a right bitch, you know that? She obviously hasn't figured out that if you keep pushing when you're sick, you crash and then you can't do anything

It's a good thing she's not close enough for me to deal with her...

As for reading material, um, don't ask me. I find a lot of romance laughable at best. Which I know bloody well is just me.

Ellyll said...

I'm the sort of person who always feels guilty when I'm the one taking a break, but is the first to tell my friends and acquaintances that they should go easier on themselves.

So, take the rest now, while you're not actually sick. It's much better for you. And I get the guilt. On the other hand, since your post made me giggle a bit, you're quite forgiven for slacking on it. ;)

As for romances, they're not generally to my taste, so I can't offer any good recommendations. Sorry.

Mike said...

Can't really help you with the romances, but these folks http://www.thegalaxyexpress.net/ keep putting up titles?

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Kate,

Since my boss and I share a body, I'm SO glad that you're not near enough to deal with her. :)

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Ellyll

well... um... Actually turns out I was already sick. At least I slept like the dead for about 12 hours straight, which doesn't happen if I'm not ill. I feel better today. Not a hundred percent, but better.

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Mike,

I'll take a look.

Dave Freer said...

The fire engines and ambulance on standby...
I'm quite fond of Nine Coaches Waiting, and Madam will you Talk - may Stewart. I prefer those to the merlin/arthur ones. And yeah, my wordcount this week has been abysmal too. My boss is shouting.

MataPam said...

Merlin/Arthur.

Yeah, they were good once. But, well, it's not like you don't know how it's going to end. Kind of like "Titanic" How much can you embroider around it to keep the reader going, when the tale is so well known?

With King Arthur even the steamy romances are *yawn* oh, is this where . . .

Anonymous said...

Um, when I'm looking for "sugar, pure sugar," I read Lackey's 500 Kingdom books- light, romantic fantasy, nothing too graphic and nothing to serious. The first one is The Fairy Godmother and it's now (4?) loosely connected sequels. Book 3 in the series is by far the weakest, with 1 and 5 being the strongest (IMO).

Also Patricia Wrede's YA Enchanted Forest Chronicles- Dealing With Dragons, etc. Ok, not romance, still light and funny.

Feel better,
Dawn

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Dave,

I have a doctor appointment today. Hopefully it will get rid of the fogginess. I am BETTER, but still get very tired, etc. Not helped by fact that a snow storm is blowing in.

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Pam,

I never got the Arthurian thing. The only one I ever liked was the one that was a science fiction version of the legend. And now I can't remember the author's name or the book's name -- Keith Laumer? -- I know the character was from the great human federation in the stars and earth was a prison planet gone rogue. His title (not name) was the 'Rthr or something like that.

Sarah A. Hoyt said...

Dawn,

It's not so much a mood for sweet. It has come to my attention I have as many readers in romance as in sf/f/mystery and though I've read it off and on when it lands on me, I've never systematically read it or studied it. So, I'd like to come up to speed.